a search for the ultimate perfection; no matter what it takes

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Day 2

& I'm trying not to be too hard on myself. I suppose we all have those days. I just seem to have a lot of them. And give myself excuses and justifications when I don't deserve them. We all have friends and family, people that watch us. I don't get a free pass because my friend came over. If anything, I should try harder!!

I'm doing great with water, and sleep so far. But I'm struggling with calories. And I find that if I'm off work, its hard to get the energy to work out. But I'm going to at least do some stationary biking and crunches tonight before bed.


Wednesday, September 30, 2015

It's been a while, ladies

But I'm back. I'm trying out the Mary Kate challenge with a fellow Ana friend :)

Day one was okay. It taught me a lot about control. It taught me that I need to try harder. It taught me that I'm only as successful as my willpower.

BUT by the end of the month, I WILL lose 10 lbs. I promise that. Watch me shrink.


Sunday, January 11, 2015

beginner workout

I am finally working out. I'm doing these two. Except I'm doing bench dips instead of sit ups, since they already have crunches. Join me!(:

Thursday, January 8, 2015

new year

At this point I don't care.

Don't care if you read this

Don't care if you care

Don't care if I'm lonely.

I see one goal on the horizon. But it is forever out of reach.

This year, I'll reach it.

In the course of 2014, I lost 15 lbs. This year, I'll lose 20. Slow and steady. Slow and steady.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

comments, ideas?

800 calories yesterday lost me a pound. im still a whale at 145.8, but i have decided as long as im headed the right direction, thats what matters. (down, never up).

but, im hungry. obviously this happens, but im wondering is anyone has some tips. i gulp water like a fish, and try hard not to eat until ive decided i need it. im taking saffron supplements which boast appetite control, but in a natural way. (a lot of weight loss pills make my head feel fuzzy and faded)

any other ideas? i really wish i liked greenor black tea, i hear those help. i just dont....

all ideas are super appreciated.


Sunday, October 26, 2014

my advice

so, after doing so well, keeping it under 700 cal just two dats ago, yesterday i got my ass handed to me. 1882 calories. now here me out:

1) my first piece of advice is to study. this disease is like the SATs, it is highly encouraged that you never show up blind. i started my day late, sleeping in for once.
then i find out my father, brother, and husband, are all outside working and want subway. fine. i get a veggie delight and decide to check the calories when i get home, then eat accordingly. riley catches me checking the calories. 800!!!! in a damn sandwich. but i then rememberi used to get a six inch and red wine vinegar. even just switching the bread and sauce will save me 300 calories next time. that way, even if i eat the whole thing, im consuming 500, not 800. no point going over on one single meal.

2) as per getting caught, im made to not only finish my sandwich, but have some cookies that ended up being 230.


because then, he made me pizza. and ecen when i was truly full, he made me eat more. thus 4uining my day and my weight! the scale shows no mercy...